Keeping up!

 

I am currently trying to keep myself on task to make sure I keep up with my school work so I can pass all of my classes. It is kind of stressful which leads me to wanting to or feeling like I need to push everything aside and not even do any homework nor notes. I used to go to Purdue Fort Wayne and I had failed classes because of personal issues. So I am trying my absolute best to not doubt myself because I know what I am capable of doing. What happened at Purdue Fort Wayne I now have very low confidence in my academic performance. Before Fort Wayne I had never failed a class or even gotten a D in a class so it really hit me hard, now I am trying to prove to myself again what I am capable of. It is very hard and it causes me to have a lot of self motivation talks. 

Inner Thoughts

 So today I am just deep in thought thinking about my boyfriend and I. I am thinking about all the cool things we can do together and all the cute little dates we could go on but he is super busy and so am I. He is an EMS plus school to get his EMT license again and I work at bath and bodyworks and going to school. It is like wet really do not have time for each other and I am a clingy girlfriend so when I cannot see him get sad and start to miss him a lot and he is clingy too so we both just really start to miss each other but are so busy. We are trying to make it where we can squeeze time for each other in but we shall see how it goes. 

Stuck

 I am kind of stuck on how to do my summary assignment I understand how to do it but I am trying to be creative and make it sound good and make it into something I am proud to turn in and I am just not feeling my own writing so I keep revising it trying to make it better. Hopefully it comes out really well because now I am starting to run out of time! Wish me luck!

Anxiety

 

Anxiety is something that I deal with on a daily basis. Many people do not know what anxiety looks like, but for me anxiety looks just like the picture I have above. I have a hard time concentrating, sleeping and other things like that. I recently had an anxiety attack that lasted all day long I had no idea what was making me so anxious. I was terrified I had never experienced an anxiety attack like that before. I was so scared that I started to cry, my hands were shaking really bad there was nothing I could do to stop it the only thing that did clam me down was my boyfriend just holding me and telling me it was all ok, him also making me laugh and smile even though he knew I was extremely anxious. Dealing with anxiety it is important to have someone there with you holding you and letting you know everything will be ok. The bad part about anxiety is that it is in your head and you can not even control it. 

Documentary Post "My Kid Cloud Paint That"

 1. The sense that got to me in this documentary is when Lura Marla's mom was looking at the computer and was reading all of the hateful and mean emails. That made me very angry and frustrated because the people started doubting that Marla was actually doing the paintings based off of the clip from 60 minutes that did not show Marla finishing the painting. I did not understand why they were so fast to think that she was not doing the paintings by herself. 

2. What truly surprised me was how much her paintings would sell for, to sell art work for $20,000 at four years old is absolutely mind blowing I was not expecting that at all.

3. My questions after viewing are to this day does anyone honestly one-hundred percent believe that Marla has done the paintings herself with no help? I am curious as to how old Marla is now and what she thinks of all of this? Some feelings that stayed with me is the feeling of feeling bad for Marla, she is was so young and I feel like it is unfair to her even if her parents were helping her paint I feel like that should not affect Marla. The plot twist happened pretty fast to me I was not expecting it to change that fast. 

4.  I feel like including research in the summaries could be a thing to avoid so we do not cloud what we are thinking of from the documentary.